Heal your relationship with the past

By the time you are reading this, I will have made a 16-hour drive from the UK to Italy.

I am writing this honest and revealing post to give you my true story to illustrate what I have been through and to see if it resonates to any varying degree with what you may have been through.

If you don’t know it yet, I was born in a tiny little town in the district of Venice in Italy, which is where I spent part of my childhood until my family moved to another city called Padova, not far from Venice.

I relocated to the UK many years ago where I met my current partner for the last 10 years, Julian. In that time he has been ‘on my case’ wanting to move to Italy at some point and at the right time in our relationship.

Moving back to Italy is something that always made me uncomfortable, and I am not going to lie, I tried to sabotage this idea a few times. Italy was never my top priority of countries to visit because it represented the place where my past emotional traumas took place, the place where I couldn’t fit in or felt accepted, the place where feelings of sadness, anxiety and anger were a daily occurrence, simply…the place that I couldn’t call home because it caused me so much unhappiness.

Deep down having Julian mentioning moving to Italy felt in a way like a sign (I believe in signs…