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Are you looking for love in the wrong places?

Carlotta L
6 min readNov 26, 2021

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It took me over 20 years to learn how to love myself, because no one had taught me, and I had to find out for myself how to do it.

It would be nice if our parents could embrace the wonder of our uniqueness and make us see ourselves in their loving eyes! This has happened to some, but unfortunately not too many others.

Most of the time, the love (that we somehow receive) is polluted by the demands that parents subconsciously make on their children. And we, as children, have adapted. We have built a personality that does not correspond to our true essence, to what made us special and unique.

As far as I am concerned, loving myself has meant starting on a path of awareness that helped me to discover who I really am.

As a child, the level of love that I was given and how much I desired it, didn’t match. I was craving love more than I have received it, and it was painful not having what I needed.

I grew up believing that I wasn’t worthy of love.

I cannot specifically remember the reason why I always felt inadequate when I was a child, but I do remember being bullied in primary school because I cried ‘too much’. I wanted to hide from everyone (including myself), and all I needed was to find comfort in my parent’s arms, which I did not find.

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Carlotta L
Carlotta L

Written by Carlotta L

Searching for meaning in our emotions and feelings. Doctoral researcher in counselling psychology and psychotherapy. www.selfhealingclinic.com/ig

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